Week #4

Hello Family and Friends!!

Hope everyone had an awesome week!! Well, this week was really... interesting! I learned so much. On Thursday it was my turn to teach our investigator with a teacher. So it was just me and this Russian girl that I had met for the first time. I spent two hours with her before we taught our investigator. We prepared a lesson and then the last 45 minutes we were supposed to go over language so I knew what to say, yano. Well, she basically was just like read this, then this, and then that? So basically, all I was gonna do was read from different things. I wasn't feeling confident at all? Especially because I feel like you can't really bring the spirit in when your just reading. So we go in there and my "investigator" was pretty quiet. Didn't really say much. But let's just say, I taught the whole lesson by myself. My "companion" barely said anything, and she was the one that spoke Russian! I was stressed out the whole time and then I wanted to be sincere about everything I said, but how could I do that if I sounded like a 6 year old trying to read? My investigator would say things that I could barely understand. I would look at my companion and say what did he say? And then she would start speaking to me in Russian? Haha I was getting so overwhelmed because I didn't know what to do. It got to a point where they both were just looking at me waiting for me to say something. I was freaking out inside and I almost started crying.. Don't worry I waited until I was done;) But in that moment I just wanted to quit. It made me realize how grateful I was to have my companions in there with me. After that I hit rock bottom. I think heavenly father really wanted to humble me and I must say he did it. I think he's trying to show me that I can not do this on my own. I learned so much from that lesson!! Afterwards my teacher talked to me and explained to me that my "companion" didn't do a very good job with helping me and not to get discouraged. So I felt a little better after. Well after that I was so bummed out. I felt like giving up. Well, I get to dinner and find out that I had two packages waiting for me. God works in weird ways... that's all I have to say. Well, the next day, I was kinda stand offish? I didn't want to talk to anyone or teach another lesson.. But we had too. So we are preparing to teach this guy Sasha and as we go to "knock on the door" we hear yelling and a bunch of random noises!!! hahaha I start laughing and said to my companions....He's Drunk!!! Sasha opened the door and was completely "wasted" I was laughing soooooo hard. I did not say one thing because I was laughing so hard. He was like walking all over the place, his clothes were unbuttoned and all this stuff. Then he starts yelling at us and telling us to come in. Ahhh!! I was dying! haha funniest thing!! So, finally I gave him a mint and on the mint it just said what time church was and we hoped to see him there. Hahahaha I will never forget that. When my teacher walked in he started clapping and just said well done!! Ah best lesson I've ever taught;) Well Sunday came around and I just wanted to be alone that day. I decided to fast because there are a lot of questions that I have that I don't understand. Cectpa Fehlberg can read me like a book...so, we're in relief society and she asked me what was wrong. I kinda told her a little bit, but not much. Later that day she said, "after you told me that the spirit told me to give you this scripture." She said she had never read it before, but the spirit just said Alma 38:3-5, I read it and it made me feel so much better. Holy cow!!! it was something that I definitely needed to hear. It's crazy how heavenly father does stuff sometimes. The next day I received more answers to my prayers. And then again on Tuesday!! The lord will answer you prayers if you put in the effort. Last night at our devotional, the president of the quorum of the 70 spoke and he talked about spiritual gifts. Made me think about all the spiritual gift that I have received through out my life. There are sooo many gifts that I have received and that I didn't even realize I had until last night!! God has given each of us so many gifts and I hope everyone during this christmas season can recognize them and thank him!! Well, That was my week. Hope it makes sense:) I love you all and I hope you all have a Merry Christmas!!!!!!!!!

Love, Cectpa Godfrey