Moscow, Russia Mission, November 20, 2013

Moscow, Russia Mission, November 20, 2013

Saturday, December 12, 2015

Photos of the Baptism and Good Bye to Russia

IT HAPPENED!! The ultimate blessing as a missionary!!

My last week as a missionary... Well last week was my full week and I guess this week doesn't really count because I'm heading up to Moscow tomorrow. I have to tell you though last week was the most amazing, stressful, emotional thing of my entire life. I'm here to inform you that WE HAD A BAPTISM!!!!!!!!! Such a complete miracle and blessing. Hazam was SO ready though. This past weekend was probably the best part of my mission. So here's what went down.

Hazam works at night. So he went to work at about 6 pm Friday night, then he had to be at the church at 12 the next day for his baptism which was at 1. Also it was his birthday:) So the morning of we were out picking up trash next to the river for a service thing. As I was staring out into the river and looking at the city of Voronezh I just got this strong feeling that god had excepted the work I've done here. Then I just thought how grateful I was that THIS was my last weekend and I have a baptism!!!!!! Like this doesn't happen. I thought about it too and I realized that If I would have extended my mission I probably would not have been in Voronezh right now. It's amazing how God knows exactly what he is doing.. So nuts!! But I feel so blessed and most the time I don't feel like I deserve it!! 

So 12 comes and Hazam and Hazar show up, mind you it was Hazam's birthday:) And when they walked in they were just glowing. I can't even explain how happy and excited I got knowing that this was actually happening? I was about to have a baptism!!!! So he got changed.. went down to the font and took some pictures. Now you notice that I said font.. So if you don't know Russia is probably the strictest mission in the world. There are SO many rules and especially recently because of all the political stuff. I guess President Klebingat found out that we were doing a baptism in the river and shut it down. I guess it was just going to cause problems.. so we had to do it in the font.. which broke.. We had scrubbed it the whole night before and thought everything would be good. But as it was filling the pump broke. So we had a hose running into it and elders running up and down the stairs trying to fill up the font with buckets. Ahaha barely made it... 

The Baptism it's self was incredible. Hazam was so excited and it was so cool seeing Hazar's face as he was getting batized!! She was crying and as we were going upstairs she's like fist pumping her hands in the air celebrating!! It's such an unreal moment when you see someone get baptized. I can't really explain it. I guess those who have served on missions know what I'm talking about yeah?? Haha indescribable!! After we went down into the kitchen for treats and we surprised him with a birthday cake and a sign and sang happy birthday:) I've never felt so happy in my entire life!! It was a great day!! 

So Sunday comes and Hazam ended up going right back to work after his baptism and then after work again he came to church to receive the Holy Ghost!! So he has now been up for 48 hours through this entire thing. He was so excited to receive the Holy Ghost. I think more excited then getting baptized! haha During the blessing the spirit was so strong and I just had this feeling like we did it!! He is officially a member!!!!!! Haha when he was walking back to his seat he literally was glowing and just had this smile on his face. The whole thing just seems like a dream to me. It doesn't seem real that I had just experienced a baptism. But I think that's what it means by incomprehensible joy. Because it's so true. It's so different then any other joy I've felt in my life. But we did it!! My last weekend I had a baptism:):):):) In Russia!!!!!!!!


So I'm not going to lie.. I never thought I would reach this point on my mission. I literally thought I was going to die here and never return home haha.. which who knows I still haven't come home yet;) just kidding mom!!!!!! But really.. How did I get here? How have I lived in Russia for 16 months.. preaching the gospel in Russian? I'm just a simple person and yet I've accomplished something that I never even pictured I would do in this life time. My mission has completely changed my life. I honestly would not have done anything else at this time then what I have just done. I remember leaving and thinking what the heck am I doing??? I don't even know why I'm going on a mission... I had no purpose.. All I knew is that I needed to go. But I trusted that. I trusted that Heavenly Father knew what he was doing and that everything would work out. And that's what I came out with.. And even as time went on I still didn't understand why I was here. Why I was spending every day doing things that made me feel uncomfortable or scared. Now that I've reach the end I know why I'm here and why god wanted me to serve a mission in Moscow, Russia. I was called to serve because I made a promise to my Heavenly Father long before that I would help him find his children. I was called to serve to bless my family and my future family. I know without a doubt through meg's and my service (soon to be chan's) our family has been so blessed and will be for the rest of our lives. I was called to find the people that I helped bring to the waters of Baptism, especially Hazam and Hazar:) I was called to make friends that I will have for eternity! I was called to realize what the gospel even was and why it's important. I was called to learn to take care of myself and live on my own. I was called to strengthen my relationship with Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ. I was called to learn how to do hard things. I was called to serve so I could learn to set goals and accomplish them. I was called to serve to meet these Russian people.. to be yelled at, to be threatened for my life, to be ridiculed and mocked, but also to help these people, to feel their love, to strength them, to tell them that there is a god that loves them. To learn everything I can from them to become the person that God wants me to be. I know that I would not be this person I am now if I had not gone on a mission if I had not experienced every single thing that has happened to me on my mission. I know that by small and simple things, great things come to pass. My success does not matter by how many baptisms I've gotten because I know that there is so much more then that. I love Russia. I love my mission with all my heart. I love Russian people SOOO much.. haha they are crazy, but so incredible. I know I can do hard things. I know what every emotion feels like:) haha I know that with God ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE. I know that this Church, The Church of Jesus Christ is true. It's not a part of my life anymore. It has become my life and I hope to keep that the rest of my life. I know that Jesus Christ is MY savior. He has carried me through my entire mission.. I am so weak. There were times, many times I was done. I couldn't go anymore.. but he lifted me up. Energy and desire to do the work would randomly come out of know where. I learned to walk with him day by day. I know that Joseph smith is a prophet of God and so is Thomas Monson. I know without a doubt families can be together forever which is probably the greatest blessing God could ever give me. I know that we aren't alone. That we always have a companion with us and that's the holy ghost. He will guide and help you, but you just have to be willing to listen. I know that the Book of Mormon is the word of God. It is a book that is specifically given to us to help us learn and grow and become like our Savior. And to help us to return to our Heavenly Father. Ah I love my mission. I love everything about it and it kills me to think that this is it.. this is the end.. I'm terrified to come home.. I have no idea what I'm doing. But as always, like coming out on a mission, I have to trust him that everything will work out. Thank you everyone for all your support and prayers. I can't believe it's the end but I love you all!! And yeah.. I'll see you soon:) 

RANDOM PHOTOS

I Can't Believe It... Last Week and a BAPTISM!! WEEK #61

o your wondering how I'm probably feeling right now?!! To be honest I can't really tell you haha my emotions are literally all over the place.. so I'm just not going to talk about it:) Spring is coming! I know because you can smell the wet paint that the Russians just throw on over a rusty fence with dirt all over it haha they just paint everything and do the worst job.. but when you smell that paint. You know it's spring:)  So as you know from last week we have a baptism this next Saturday!! I'm happy to inform you that he pasted his baptismal interview, came to church (which was stressful) and has a time and a place:) It will be on Saturday at 1 in the river haha He wants to get baptized in a river so badly.. even though it's still pretty cold.. So hopefully it will get a little warmer this next week haha But ahhh I can't believe this is happening to me. I'm going to have a baptism on my last Saturday??? What?? Remember when I talked a while ago about the will of god and having faith in Jesus Christ.. Well it works!! I know with all my heart it works!!! This past week I was really humbled with some of the situations that we had. One night I just got down on my knees just thanking God for everything he was giving me right now because in a way I don't feel like I deserve it. I thought though about my whole mission and how HARD it's been haha but I think about what's about to happen and I think about Hazam and Hazar and how blessed I am to be apart of this experience and I've decided that I would do it all again for this experience that I've had with them. My mission has been led up to this point. I've worked so hard and given everything I had to the lord. A couple weeks ago I thought I was going to go home with not much success.. But Luke 1:37.. With God nothing is impossible. Now I have a little story for you.. 

 23 Now do ye remember, my brethren, that we said unto our brethren in the land of Russia, we go up to the land of Russia, to preach unto our brethren, the Russians, and they laughed us to scorn?
 24 For they said unto us: Do ye suppose that ye can bring the Russians to the knowledge of the truth? Do ye suppose that ye can convince the Russians of the incorrectness of the traditions of their fathers, as stiffnecked a people as they are; whose hearts delight in the drinking of alcohol; whose days have been spent in the grossest iniquity; whose ways have been the ways of a transgressor from the beginning? Now my brethren, ye remember that this was their language.
 25 And moreover they did say: Let us take up arms against them, that we destroy them and their iniquity out of the land, lest they overrun us and destroy us.
 26 But behold, my beloved brethren, we came into the land of Russia not with the intent to destroy our brethren, but with the intent that perhaps we might save some few of their souls.
 27 Now when our hearts were depressed, and we were about to turn back, behold, the Lord comforted us, and said: Go amongst thy brethren, the Russians, and bear with patience thine afflictions, and I will give unto you success.
 28 And now behold, we have come, and been forth amongst them; and we have been patient in our sufferings, and we have suffered every privation; yea, we have traveled from Dom to Dom, relying upon the mercies of the world—not upon the mercies of the world alone but upon the mercies of God.
 29 And we have entered into their Doms and taught them, and we have taught them in their streets; yea, and we have taught them upon their metros; and we have also entered into their dachas and their Bonyas and taught them; and we have been cast out, and mocked, and spit upon, and smote upon our cheeks; and we have been stoned, and taken and bound with strong cords, and cast into prison; and through the power and wisdom of God we have been delivered again.
 30 And we have suffered all manner of afflictions, and all this, that perhaps we might be the means of saving some soul; and we supposed that our joy would be full if perhaps we could be the means of saving some.

Basically these scriptures explain my mission. Everything we go through builds us into who we need to be. I can't tell you how grateful I am for everything I've suffered on my mission. I may not have had as much as success that I wanted, but it makes moments like these even more incredible. Please keep Hazam in your prayers this next week:) And lets Have a BAPTISM!!!!!!! 



I loved your letter:) thanks so much:) haha you make me worried a little bit with coming home. I don't want to be like everyone else but I know it will just happen because that's how life is? But I think me and meg will be able to help each other out so that is good. This past week was really good. Just trying to stay focused haha so nuts that I have one more full week!! Basically next week I'm going to be in Moscow. So do you want anything specific from russia:) Also what things do you want me to bring home. I know I'll bring my coat, but do you want my shoes? Galina is in the hospital and will be for 2 weeks so I won't get to really meet with her before I leave. Hopefully will get to go see her tomorrow though. Hazam and Hazar are great!! i can't wait to tell you all about them because literally they are incredible and words can't describe how great they are. I feel so blessed to be apart of this:) So glad things are going good at home. Hope the building will work out. That makes me sad about the cousins. I feel like I just want to come home and tell them up haha and tell them to get over themselves. You might come to notice Russia has made me really blunt so will see haha Ah I don't know what to say. I just can't wait to see you guys. It's going to be an unreal moment. But anyways I loved your spiritual thought:) It was great and it's so true!!! Life is nuts isn't it?? Every day I'm blown away haha but hope you have a great week!! Keep everyone in your prayers here and I can't wait to tell you all about it next week:) Love you!! 

Russia in the News

ВЫПУСК НОВОСТЕЙ — 6 МАЯ 2015

Апрельские субботники в Воронеже

ВОРОНЕЖ — 
Весенние субботники - традиция, пришедшая к нам из прошлых времен, однако в наши дни она постепенно приобретает новые позитивные краски. Старшее поколение помнит, что субботники были обязательным мероприятием и поэтому доставляли мало удовольствия. Теперь же все больше и больше людей приходит к пониманию того, что чистота и красота наших городов – это не только ответственность городских служб, но и их личная, как жителей этих мест, как граждан страны.
В апреле члены Церкви Иисуса Христа Святых последних дней из Воронежа (мормоны) приняли участие сразу в трёх субботниках в рамках проекта «Мормоны. Руки помощи», направленных на благоустройство родного города. Особенностью этих субботников стало активное участие в них местных жителей, не членов Церкви.
Предыстория такова. Некоторое время назад одна из жительниц города, Надежда Ивановна, познакомилась с членами Церкви.  Они рассказали ей о планах по благоустройству близлежащей территории. Разговор этот в дальнейшем привёл к неожиданным, но приятным результатам.
Будучи неравнодушным человеком, Надежда Ивановна не только пришла на субботник 4 апреля сама, но и пригласила своих соседей. В итоге из 40 человек, наводивших порядок на берегу водохранилища, только половину составляли члены Церкви, остальные были жителями этого района.
Все участники мероприятия остались довольны результатами. Одна молодая мать рассказала: «Раньше я никогда не гуляла здесь с детьми - слишком уж грязно! Теперь мы с удовольствием придем сюда всей семьей. Ведь это так близком к нашему дому!»  Другой местный житель, отец двух детей, принявший участие в уборке, пообещал, что никогда больше не бросит на землю мусор, и этому же будет учить своих детей.
11 апреля другая группа прихожан -  более 20 человек -  приняли участие в субботнике, организованном представителями администрации Левобережного района г. Воронежа. И опять инициатива была активно поддержана местными жителями.
18 апреля продолжилась уборка берега водохранилища.  В этот раз в мероприятии, кроме прихожан, приняло участие еще больше местных жителей. Все трудились дружно и усердно и вместе порадовались большому объему выполненных работ.
Члены Церкви Иисуса Христа Святых последних дней с удовольствием поддерживают добрую традицию апрельских субботников, потому что верят - помощь ближнему должна проявляться в повседневных актах доброты и милосердия. Таким несложным образом каждый может сделать свой вклад в развитие нашего общества и России.
ПРИМЕЧАНИЕ ПО СТИЛЮ ИЗЛОЖЕНИЯ:Рассказывая о Церкви Иисуса Христа Святых последних дней, просьба при первичном упоминании приводить полное наименование Церкви. Чтобы получить дополнительные сведения относительно порядка использования названия Церкви, обращайтесь в Интернете к нашему Руководство по стилю оформления.

Week #60 - What Just Happened??

Ok ok ok so I'm pretty stressed out right now thinking about what to write you. SO much happened this weekend that I don't even know where to begin. To start off though.. conference was Great!! Talked a lot about marriage.. scary! But were not going to think about that?? I'm just cracking up though that it would talk about that stuff when I only have 3 more weeks.. haha As for Galina.. She had to get surgery.. and she has to get it again on Wednesday.. But yano that's just how things have to be:) I think god knows best and we just have to trust that!! So all is well:) And plus after this week.. haha things are even better!!! 

SO to start off with Monday. We met with the Muslim couple. Hazam is the man and Hazar is the girl. Just so you know:) We met with them after about 3 weeks of not seeing them. Me and my comp decided we were going to get a baptismal date with them. So that lesson we talked about Prophets and stuff and Hazar believes that Christ is just another prophet. That he is not the son of god. We tried to explain to her but it just wasn't sinking in? So we continued to teach and got to the baptismal date. As we were talking about it they're like yeah what time?? I was like wait what?? At that time we had the date for the 23 of May. But then it got to the point where they wanted to pick the date. Then Hazam was talking about how he wants the church to be in Seeria and how he know's people that could help get the church over there. I can't even explain the excitement I was feeling at that moment!! So after that we set up a time to met the next day. 

Sister Fehlberg ended up coming on the lesson with me because we were on splits. The whole day I was just praying to help Hazar come to know that Jesus Christ is the son of God. I prepared all morning and studied for it. And then the time came where we had to meet!! I had butterflies in my stomach the whole time during the lesson. I have to say it was one of the most powerful lessons I've ever had on the mission. The spirit was so strong that Hazar just started crying!! And she said that she knows that Christ is the son of god because of what she had felt during our lesson. At the end we talked about baptism again.. Hazam straight up was like I'm ready to get baptized this week!!! We were like wait what???? Haha then we talked and explained to him what he has to do in order to get baptized. I was in complete shock at this point!! And so we made the date for the 25th of April. They both excepted and we had a lesson set up for the next day. As we were leaving I was soo excited, but yet something just didn't feel right? When we got home we were celebrating with the other Sisters and explaining to them what had just happened!! As were talking though the phone rings... Hazar called and said she can't do this. At that point I wasn't shocked. But confused? She just had this amazing experience feeling the spirit and now she is denying it?? She told us that after we left she prayed really really hard and didn't feel anything. So she decided she didn't want to do this anymore. She would still meet with us with hazam but other then that she just didn't want to do it. At that point I was sick to my stomach. Thoughts were going on in my head like what did I do wrong? what could we have done better? Why is this happening? I don't think I've felt so many emotions in such little time haha. Going to bed though was rough. 

The next day we still planned to go meet with them. I was determined to figure out what was really going on because on the phone she just kept saying I can't do this without any explanation. So we were done with splits and Me and sister Hancock headed to their place. I was so nervous but knew that whatever happened is what needed to happen. The lesson was actually completely normal. We just were talking about things and they couldn't stop complimenting our church. Then the subject came up about the phone call. Basically it is unsafe for Hazar to get baptized. Which makes complete sense. Hazam is from a different city so it's safe for him, but for her it's not safe. When I heard that just a relief came over me. She was saying how much she loves the church and how grateful she is to know us. She's still going to meet with us with hazam but as for baptism she can't do. So after that we continued to teach Hazam because we have to prepare him for baptism. We taught them the law of chastity.. talk about awkward. haha because they're not married yet.. (I thought that was going to be a huge problem) But as we brought it up they were like that's great! They liked that commandment?? Haha then we started talking about eternal marriage and temples. Hazam asked if he could married a nonmember and we were like yeah of course you just can't be sealed to her. Then he looked to Hazar and was like I need you to become a mormon. haha AH I wish I could explain to you how amazing they are and how prepared for the gospel they are. 

We met with them yesterday because they came to conference and he's basically ready to get baptized! We just have to wait for the 25th and hope he comes to church on sunday!! Other then that he's like lets do this:) SO amazing how the lord know's way way better then you do!! He has a better plan for you and sometimes it's hard to be patient and wait. No matter what happens I know the lord is on my side and with him all things are possible. Please keep them in your prayers:) 



Hey:)

So to start off.. Galina.. has to get surgery again on Wednesday.. Which is totally fine. I think this kind of stuff has happened so much on the mission that I'm ok with it. I know that it's in gods hands!! I don't know if she'll make her date. But I do know one day she will be baptized:) A crazy miracle happened this week!! Ah you'll have to read about it in my weekly letter. So nuts!!!! I can't even explain everything that happened??? Also I got to go on splits with Sister Fehlberg!! It was amazing and I was so stoked because it was my last split!! Also president and sister borders are in america right now because sister borders has to get surgery.. Don't tell anyone. I'm super sad because zone conference is cancelled and I don't get to see sister borders before I leave.. but it's ok! THings happen:) Thanks for putting money on my card! Do you guys want anything special?? Sounds like it's still a party at home haha it's going to be crazy!!! I"m glad you had a great easter:) This easter was really good! Just watched conference and stuff:) I really liked bednar, christofferson, and holland! I think there's were my favorites:) Man life is crazy. It's so weird too. Masha had her baby.. and we got to go see her so that was exciting. Her parents don't want to deal with her anymore though so that's sad.. Um but anyways what to say I don't know? I think for when I get home just a gym pass and teeth appointment haha maybe a hair appointment.. and Yeah? I don't know? But anyways I love you mom:) I hope you have a great week!! There is an elder here that has a lot of family from virginia and he loves it there!! He's been telling me all about it:) So chan's going to kill it. Something I've thought about is my mission hasn't been about the place i've served or what I've seen. It's all about the people. And chan should be SO grateful he doesn't have to deal with the language. haha but he's going to do so awesome:) I can't wait to come home and just pump him up:) But anyways love you!!!


Photos Week #59

Week #59 - Happily Ever After

So I'm not going to lie I had a hard time saying goodbye to Sister Kai.. but I guess it's what had to be done yano? Funny story and random too, but she had shown me these chocolate things that were, in my opinion, really good! So I would just buy them all the time and they are suppose to be healthy so I thought hey I can eat these and enjoy my chocolate but yet still be healthy:) well as I was eating one Sister Kai goes do you want to know what's in that.. I was like Do I? Haha the past 3 weeks I've been eating a chocolate bar thing with.. Blood in it!! Yeah the rest of the day I was so grossed out I couldn't eat anything. Haha only in Russia right?? 

Transfers though were really good. I felt really weird and I still don't know why? I don't know if it was because 3 of my companions went home or because it was my last one before mine?? Either way I was having a hard time.. I'm super scared but I can't wait to just totally kill it this next transfer!! I've already seen so many miracles it's insane!! My comp is awesome. Her name is Sister Hancock and she's from San Fran! She's been out almost the same time. One Transfer behind so she'll be coming home pretty soon too. We get along super great and just party contacting and doing missionary work. I'm super stoked for this transfer because I can just tell things are going to happen. 

When I was on the train going into Moscow I read a talk called "Your Happily Ever After" by President Uchtdorf. If you haven't read it you should:) It's great haha but After I read it I just thought how the mission is basically like another world. Like your own personal Fairy Tale. When I first entered into the field it started off as "Once upon a time" And of course like all fairy tales it involves courage, love and hope. In most stories too nice overcomes mean and good overcomes evil. And we all have the desire to become the heroes of our own story. Well on the mission you face all of that. And the number one thing that you face on a mission is adversity, which is also what every story tale faces. We are on this mission and face adventure, trial, and opportunities of greatness nobility courage, and love, and the most glorious of all is the part when you fulfill your purpose as a missionary and live "Happily Ever After." When you have faced every trial possible without quiting and giving up. When you have done all you can to invite people to be baptized or to come to church. When you talk to hundreds of people every week just trying to find that one person who could possible be interested. Everything we face is only to prepare us for our happily ever after. And we could not have a happily ever after if we don't overcome adversity that is placed in our lives. In stories, as in life, adversity teaches us things we cannot learn otherwise. Adversity helps to develop a depth of character that comes in no other way. Our loving Heavenly Father has set us in a world filled with challenges and trials so that we, through opposition, can learn wisdom, become stronger, and experience joy. Now that I have 5 weeks left I have to give all that I can. Endure to the very last minute and live every single day. Because pretty soon I will come to my Happily ever after.. but also start a whole other, "Once upon a time." I love you:) have a great week!!

Last Transfer Photos

Last Transfer!! Week #58

Well you all are probably what is happening to me for my LAST TRANSFER... so I guess I will tell you:) I am dying in Voronezh! Which I'm super pumped about because I know that there are things here that I need to finish. Sister Kai is leaving.. but not to far.. just a city away:) My companion is actually my Sister Training Leader so that will be super fun haha about a month ago when we were on splits she kept on telling me how she wants to kill me:) And what do you know!! But yeah so nuts! I will have served in 3 areas with 10 companions... haha so insane to think that my adventure is coming to an end!!! But just means that I get to soon start my next adventure... which is... I don't know yet, but hey it's not important right now;) I just got to keep focusing on these Russian people and book it to the finish line!! 

So I want to just say that it has been the biggest blessing to serve with Sister Kaygorodova! I love her SO much. I'm pretty sure words cannot describe how much I adore her. I don't know if you know this but when I first got out on my mission I would pray that I would have a Russian companion. Now our mission at that time had only 1 sister missionary that was Russian and she was a sister training leader? and she was going home soon. So I was like welp probably won't happen, but I'll still keep praying;) haha then in Dec. I heard there was going to be a new Russian sister and I was stoked, but I was like the only way I would serve with her is if I trained her? But that wouldn't happen. Especially because she was the only sister even coming in that transfer! But the lord answered my prayer!!! And I had the opportunity to spend 14 weeks with my baby girl:) Something happened though in the middle of our training.. she told me that at first her call was to Ukraine. But because of the whole situation there she had to receive a new call and it was so Moscow. She was like I'm not going to lie I was super bummed. I didn't want to serve in Moscow. When she was telling me this the spirit hit me so strong that this is where she needed to be. With me! There were things that I needed to learn and that I could not have learned with any other person. Sister Kai is such a unique person. And I've been so lucky to completely dive into the Russian Culture! I've even been speaking Russian for the past 14 weeks??? What??? I can't do that?? haha no way did I even think that was possible. Anywho even though I was her trainer I'm pretty sure she trained me. No I'm positive she trained me:) Haha I know without a doubt we will be best friends for ever. I wish you all could just meet her because like I always say words cannot describe:)

Something else I would like to tell you about is something that happened this week. Like I said last week our district had a baptism. We had the opportunity to meet with the Muslim couple on Thursday and invited them to the baptism.. well a little bit before the baptism started the showed up!!! I was in beyond shock because usually the say they will come to things and never show up. Those of you that have served missions know exactly that feeling when you see you investigators walk into the church! Because THEY CAME!!!! And they came at a good time to have a lesson:) So we had a lesson! It was an incredible lesson. We talked about the gospel of Jesus Christ which was perfect! We got on the subject of the holy ghost and explained what it meant to have the gift of the Holy Ghost. Hazar was saying that she recognizes that there is something there. She said when she comes into this building she feels peace and happy and as soon as she leaves shes like that feeling goes away. Then she looked up at me and said I want to have that feeling with me always. When she said that my heart just burned!! Because right there the Holy Ghost is helping her recognize that what she is doing is true. That this is where she needs to be. It's that still small voice that makes us do things we normally wouldn't do. It's that still small voice that lets these investigators know that they need to be baptized. It was that still small voice that told me I needed to serve a mission. It's that still small voice that tells us that Jesus is the Christ. And yet our world is so full of distractions which is blocking out that still small voice. The holy ghost is there and he will tell you what we need to do. But in the end it's up to us! We have to be willing to listen. We have to be willing to shut off the tv or the computer every once in awhile and listen. The holy ghost is an incredible companion and we have the opportunity to have him with us always. But we have to be willing to listen. I know that the Holy Ghost is key to our investigators conversions. And I'm not going to lie sometimes I'm scared that yano maybe they won't know how to recognize it or they won't be doing it right in order to receive an answer, but I guess I just have to put my trust in the lord and know that he knows better. And I have to trust that!! 

Well my invitation this week to you is listen to that still small voice:) He's ready to help. We just need to listen.  


Mum!!!

Well the news about transfers.. I am dying in Voronezh.. Which is great haha I love it here:) But sister kai is leaving.. She is going to a city right by Voronezh so will be close and were still in the same zone:) My new companion is actually my sister training leader haha so that will be fun!! She called it which was way funny!! But she's super cool so I can't wait:) I think this transfer will be a lot of fun!! That is so nuts meg hung out with Liana!!! I'm so stoke you guys will get to know her! She's awesome:) Oh my so cool!!! Seems like a great week though for you guys:) I'm happy that the building is good. Al is off which is nuts and Chan's papers are in!!! Wuhoo!!!! Then in 6 weeks I'm home.. so nuts?? Transfers will be weird seeing 3 of my companions go home.. but it will be good:) This week was really good! Ah so many miracles and just learned a lot about the holy ghost and how important his role in conversion is!! Our investigators are progressing and our one investigator Galina is great her mom is just against it so we have to get around that! Other then that I feel like she will get baptized:) I'm glad to hear Jamee liked my letter haha I don't even remember what I wrote. Haha I don't know if I've changed or not so when I come home will have to see how weird I am? It's getting warmer here which is great:) And yano still contacting and what not.. just a typical week:) I hope I get your package before transfers but I don't know.. will see!! But anyways I love you mom:) Thank you for your spiritual thought I'm scared I'm going to get back into all that stuff when I get home. So I gotta be aware of it;) haha have a great week! Love yoU!

Women's Week Photos - Week #57

Thursday, December 10, 2015

Women's Day, Week #57

Hey everyone!! I never know how to start these.. You think I would know by now.. but I don't.. so I'm just going to jump right into it:) This week was awesome!! Full of running around and trying to do all that we can to help these people. Meeting with people from all of the world haha this week we had a lesson with an african who is super cool! Then the Muslims from Seerie. I live in a college town basically so there are a lot of different people here studying which is way cool!! Yesterday was "Women's Day" Which is basically like mothers day.. but not? It's awesome because all the men are so kind to you and giving you things haha :) We had another branch party which are always so fun!! The elders had to do perform something and so they decided to steal our idea and make their own cup song which was way fun! Our investigators are all doing good. Slowly progressing.. but hey they will get there :) Our district has a baptism on Saturday which is so cool!! It's the first one this year in Voronezh:) So that should be awesome!! I receive transfer calls this next week and transfers will be next week so we shall see what happens for my LAST transfer.. oh man that's weird...

So this week I was thinking a lot about love.. yeah that may be weird.. but I had a really cool experience and I thought I would share it with you:) One day I was going through the area book and looking for in actives. I came across this lady which her son lived in Zgrad and I actually went to their house a couple times to do service for them. When I saw that there was a connection I was like yes we are meeting with her!! So I called a couple times and she just wasn't super interested in meeting.. But I bribed her with some cookies;) and she finally let us come over!! She was super cute and way nice. It made no sense to me why she was inactive?? She had been to the temple many many times and loves the bofm. We began to do our lesson and her reasons why she wouldn't come to church came up. I guess her daughter gave her a bunch of false things about Joseph Smith and now she's having a hard time coming back to church because of it. When I heard that my heart just broke!! Like she's letting one little thing get in the way with something that's blessed her entire life!! There came a point where it was just silent. I looked at her and just told her God loves her. So much. Now we as missionaries say that all the time haha but there have been a couple times when I have said that and immediately the spirit hits me and I know with all my heart that it's true. So this was one of those moments:) As I said that she just started crying. Then I started crying which was weird because I hate crying. But the spirit was so strong and I knew right then that God loved her and that he always has. It's such an amazing opportunity we have as missionaries to tell people that god loves them. Yeah it may be a little cheesy sometimes but it's so true!!! God loves everyone no matter what! He loves us even with all our flaws. His love is such that even if we should give up on ourselves, he never will. And to know that even though we may forget about him he will never forget about us!! 


I read this talk the other day and Jeffrey R. Holland made the comment that on the day of judgement he would not be surprised if Heavenly Father asked, "Did you love me?" Now of course at that moment were all going to be like "God I love you so much!!" But in the end what shows our love towards him is by our actions here on earth. If we truly love god we will do what he asks. We will keep his commandments, we will pray to him, we will serve others. There are so many things that we have to do in order to show god that we love him. And if we truly love him we would do anything for him. The measure of our love is the measure of the greatness of our souls. Love is the beginning, the middle, and the end of the pathway of discipleship. The greatest way to show our love is through kindness and caring for others before we think of ourselves. True love lasts forever!! It is eternally patient and forgiving. It believes, hopes, and endures all things that is the love heavenly father bears for us. I know that love is the treasure success of life. Think about it! Everything we do is by love. And the more we serve the more we follow the commandments the more our love grows. For other people for god and for ourselves:) Love is such an amazing and yet sometimes hard thing to do. But we have the opportunity to strength that love and to show our Father in Heaven that we love him:) I love you guys so much. Thanks for everyones support and for all that you do. I know that God truly loves you. No matter what. He is with you always and he cares about you. Now it's time to show your love to god:) 

Haha I loved your letter:) Thanks mom:) Sounds like everything was just so fun:) I'm jealous I couldn't be there but that's ok:) Well as your read about my week from what I wrote dad things are pretty good. I was thinking about our family the other day and just realizing how great of a life we have. Seriously you should see how these people live here. I'm so grateful how I grew up and live. It's great here but I'm glad I don't have to live here forever yano? As for singing yes.. Russians can't sing.. I'm pretty sure my comp in tone deaf haha but it's so funny and great;) Transfers are next wednesday!!! AHh so nuts! I don't know what will happen so will see? So nuts to think on more.. but it will be good:) I'm glad you are stocking Scott haha you would;) Guess will see what happens? As of right now were friends? But you never know. Please don't got telling everyone though. I know our family and you guys especially dad have big mouths;) haha but i loved your spiritual thought. Sister kai told me yesterday that I'm a good example of focusing on today and living in today:) it really makes such a difference. but your awesome I learn from you every week too so were building each other up:) haha 

Service - Photos Week #56

Morning Contacting... Week #56

Hey Fam:) What a crazy week it's been as always. President has come up with a new rule to go contacting in the mornings now and do studies after.. Which that has been interesting? Helped a bab put up wallpaper.. Went on splits.. Had Zone Training in a different town which was fun! Today is Mens day? Which is where they basically worship the men;) We are having a party today though and I get the opportunity to sing:) So it will be fun!! What else.. haha My missionary leader keeps proposing to me.. um.. yeah ok now for the good stuff:)

So Today I want to talk about something that chan wrote me last week. I'm telling you chan is going to be an amazing missionary just saying. Every week he writes me the most inspiring things. But he was telling me about his wrestling and what had happened after he had lost his last match. This is something he said to me, "That day though I felt really really alone and it made me think about how you felt at the beginning of your mish when you said you felt alone. I had never really felt that until then. Just so much history and craziness with wrestling then in seconds it was over. Like the craziness of your life then in seconds your set apart and on your mish. But their is something magical about that. It gives you a lot of time to relax and focus on what's important. Everything is clear." When you think about it we all have multiple experiences where we feel like no one is there. That we are completely alone!! Haha I like how he talked about the beginning of my mish because it is completely true!! I remember that first transfer.. ahh every day feeling completely alone. But as time went on you came to realize... what? I'm not alone!!! I've never been alone and I never will be because Heavenly Father was with me the entire time. Even when I didn't realize it!! It made me think of these people here in Russia. Some or most don't even recognize their Heavenly Father. But what amazing thing to know that he knows them and he is with them, they just have to be willing to turn to him and come to know him. We had an experience with our investigator this past week.. ah it was incredible!!! She said her first prayer with us!! She now knows who her heavenly father is and can turn to him any time in any setting, knowing that she is never alone and never was alone because he was always there. We all know that the savior know's exactly what it feels like to be alone. And because of what he did for us we never have to feel like even though sometimes we may feel that we are. If you think about Christ last week and you think about all the people that decided to follow him would be right by his side during his last ministry.. What I don't understand is Judas?? How could he betray the son of god!! Someone who had prayed with him, seen miracles and ministered with him?? Like what?? Betraying him for 30 pieces of silver?? Then peter when he denied the savior 3 times??? I'm sure the savior was like what are you doing?!! But one thing that I can't even imagine.. what those last moments when God had to withdraw from him for that short moment. Christ was completely alone at that point!! But yet he had never done anything wrong to deserve that... Ah man It kills me to think about that. But that's how it had to be. In order for him to complete the atonement and to feel what most of the world would feel like. But because of the atonement and what he went through we never have to be alone.


It was funny because I was thinking about this the other day and Saturday night we are coming home from a lesson and I'm talking to this girl on the bus, not paying any attention to what's going on around me. After a little while I was like I feel like we should have been there by now? But I just continued talking to this girl haha and then I soon came to realize that, yes we had definitely passed our stop. So I turn around to see if Sister Kai was there and she wasn't.. She was gone!!! Hahaha I was like ahhh crap... In my head though I was just laughing.. So I got off at the next stop and headed back to where I needed to be. I was just so grateful to know that Sister kai is russian and now's how to do everything instead of an american greenie not having any idea what to do. Anyways I got off the bus and started walking down the street. It was completely dark and there was no one around me or even on the street. At that moment I felt super uncomfortable? Haha I was like where is my companion I don't like this feeling!! I feel completely alone!!! I wasn't scared or anything, but just uncomfortable.. Maybe because I've been with someone 24-7 for 16 months haha but I began to think about jesus christ and what chan was talking about being alone.. Then out of the distance I see Sister Kai just standing under this light post just waiting for me haha I think she was nervous she wasn't going to find me.. But she was there just waiting for me. I was never alone!! It's like us. we are never alone! Heavenly Father and JC are always there. We just have to turn to them and walk in their direction:) Anyways your never alone:) Love ya! have a great week! 

Hey mum:)

Wow seems like a busy week!! But I'm glad you got dad and chan off and had a good wakky womens weakend haha. It's so true about the trials. and we need them in order to grow. I swear that is everyones questions! Like why does god give us trials. But yano that's life and we just have to deal with it and grow and learn. even though sometimes we don't understand why!! But man time is so weird after this week I only have 2 more months!! And only 3 weeks left of the transfer. I'm scared i'm going to get transferred.. Will see though. Guess what did I ever tell you that ILP has a place here in voronezh? Well they do:) and all these students came to church yesterday so it was cool to see them! i'm like hey maybe I could to ILP here and return to russia;) Haha i want to go to thialand though so will see? I heard meg is moving to st george. So kels changed her mind? Is it for colton! Things must be going good because she went with him to a race?? She's not telling me anything about it though haha but anyways things are good! I'm singing today at this party so you should be proud of me;) haha I don't need anything else. Just hoping the packages gets here before transfers so I can give sister kai her ring!! But yeah were planning to go on a diet in march so that should be good:) Haha anyways things are good:) Hope things are good with you mom!! I love you!!! Hope you have a great week!! 

Week #55 Photos

Are You Happy?? - #55


What a crazy week!! Holy cow.. I feel like I've been running all over Voronezh this past week. Which I have so it's been good:) Um I think the most exciting thing that happened to me this week.. So Valentines day! We had the opportunity to help this Ukrainian family who just got to Voronezh a month ago. Their story is awful.. I guess last week there entire apartment building in Ukraine was blown up.. So sad. But they are incredible strong. Such a great example to me. Also we finally got to meet with the Muslim couple, Hazar and Hazom:) They are great!! This was the first time we went to there place so we didn't know what to expect? As we get there we realize they live in like a student dorm basically. So we get in and they take us into one of there friends rooms. There is probably 6 people stuffed in this tinny room. Hazar told us that they were interested in hearing our lesson, so we were like great!! Well in the end it was not such a good idea.. We started of talking and on of them pulls out a cigarette and starts smoking.. He looks at us and is like sorry is this ok? I'm like um..... Ha not really sorry.. I didn't know what to say?? I felt so uncomfortable.. But he left so that was good! Afterwards we said a prayer and began talking about the plan of salvation. As were talking on of their other friends bulls out this big old bong and starts smoking hooka as we are teaching.. I'm like ahh do I say something?? So we just kinda ignored it as we continued teaching. Probably not the best thing because I know without a doubt the HG was like Nope I'm out!!! They like start passing it around and the room is like covered in smoke.. it was awful!! But on the plus side their friends really liked what we had to say:) haha so Happy Valentines Day?? 

Something that I've been thinking about this past week is happiness. And how we can find true Happiness. I feel like everyone in this entire world is just doing all they can so they can find happiness right?? Happiness is the object and design of our existence and will be the end thereof if we pursue the path that leads to it. Happiness is basically the meaning and purpose of life and the whole aim of human existence. Something that I've learned is it's hard to find when your Running straight for it. Happiness usually comes when you least expect it. And I don't know about you, but it never stays. Like your not happy 24-7. It comes in pieces and we have to kinda work for it. It's not like a package that we can just open up and consume it when we want. Something that I've learned on my mission is what brings true Happiness.. That is the Gospel of Jesus Christ!! I've seen it over and over again with members and investigators. The life they live is not very easy in any way. I feel like their lives is sleep, work, and eat. That's it!! But on Sundays they have the opportunity to feel that happiness and get away from the world. I remember when Dallin Moulton first got out on his mission he said something to me that has always stuck. He said, "I've never felt so happy in my entire life. I can't believe that I almost missed out on something so incredible." Now when I was home and read that I thought, how can you be happy when your completely locked down? You don't get to watch tv, talk to family, etc. But coming on a mission I completely understand what that means!! The other day I was walking on the street and I just felt this incredible joy come to me. And we were contacting? How does that work. But it does!! I think something to that I've learned is there has to be opposition in all things. I think if on my mission everything was just peachy and people were all getting baptized I wouldn't feel the joy that I feel when I receive a contact or have a good conversation with someone on the bus. It's funny to think that the littlest things bring me so much joy;) haha I think in the end so much of our happiness lies in our hands. We have the agency to decide whether we will be happy or not. Your usually as happy as you make up your mind to be. Do you believe that? Your thoughts are how you see life's problems and how you find a solution to those problems. And in the end God expects a willing mind in the quest to happiness. Every day people are fighting for it, striving for it, and insists upon it and looks for it!! But I promise you if your just looking for the next thing to make you happy your not going to find it. If you think, "If I just have a better car I'll be happy!" But if you think about it, have you ever received what you wanted and you were happy. Of course you are for a little bit, but how long does it last before you want something else to bring you happiness. Makes me think that when I was in Africa. Those people had nothing and yet they were so happy!! Why?? haha so my challenge to you is be happy:) Live in the moment!! Stop trying to chase the butterfly! Wait for it to land on you. have a great week!! Love you!!

Hey Mum:)

Well I must say I loved your letter. It was a little sad, but look how much you've learned!! I hope gram and grandma are doing ok. AH they scare me!!! But I know HF Will help them. Give them my love and know that they are in my prayers!!! It's way interesting that you were going through that whole thing with chan. I swear I feel like I go through something like that every week. We had a lesson with out investigator and I had been praying and preparing all week for it!! I knew that it was going to go well and that she would except the baptismal date and that we would be able to answer her questions. Well we go into the lesson and I can't speak so that it's understandable. She starts asking really hard questions and doesn't except the baptismal date. Afterwards I was like HF!!!!!!! WHAT MORE DO I HAVE TO DO!!!!! I felt like a failure. I felt like everything I do is not right. But yano sometimes we don't understand everything. and maybe we never will. but I'll tell you that ha I know what I need to change. I know what I need to do better and how to act. Everything happens for our benefit and what we need to learn. I can't say I know why chan lost. But got does. And we have to trust in that. But you guys are great:) ha we can do this life together right;) But Africa will be fun for them!! Why did you sale the boat?? To who?? Florida will be fun:) haha go to harry potter world for me;) haha also mom I have a question.. So there is a member here and she is having struggles with her marriage.. Who husband is a less active and they are struggling right now. We have a lesson with her but we don't really know what to talk about. I thought you would have an idea since you know what it's like to be married:)