So as you all know about that Text I received from a golden investigator about two weeks ago? Kristina? Ring a bell?? Well we finally got to meet with her this past Thursday..
After two weeks of receiving that text we had been trying to meet, but for some reason she couldn't and then we couldn't and so finally we me with her. But before I kept thinking maybe the reason we are not meeting this Wednesday is because heavenly father is working is magic on her to get her to change her mind? Or Maybe we aren't meeting with her on Thursday because Heavenly Father is giving me the chance to fast, so that she will have a change of heart and want to hear more. So all these little things are going on in my head as the days to meet with her keep changing. Of course she is in every single one of my prayers . Just pleading to God that she will change her mind. So the day comes when we finally meet with her. As were on the metro I turned to the people next to me to talk to them. This lady totally yells at me and didn't want to talk to me, so I decided to pray:) haha I remember just asking heavenly father for strength and to help me know what to say to her and to follow the spirit. And then I sat there for a second.. and just decided yano HF whatever is meant to happen tonight, I will be ok with it. And if it doesn't work out help me to be ok with it. I know you know way more then I do. Please help me to be willing to except whatever is meant to happen. As I finished my prayer I got up and we walked out of the metro. We waited around the metro and she came walking out. She didn't want to talk long, but she just wanted to thank us and give the book back. As she handed it to us I said We can't take that book from you. The book means more to us then anything in the world. And we want you to have it. She couldn't accept it, but we wouldn't either:) So finally she took it and just said thank you. Then she just told us that she's not ready now. She thought a lot about what we said and she just can't do it. The more we talked to her the more sad I began to feel. She has an incredible spirit and you can see it when you look in her eyes. When we were done, She gave us a hug and walked away. I literally felt like someone had broken up with me haha ahh man. Worse feeling of my life... And then I started to think WHY?? Why did she not change her mind? I prayed, I fasted? What?? Then I remember that prayer I said on the metro. And remembered the words that I said. "I will accept whatever you give me." Even though it sucked and I wasn't very happy.. I told him I was willing to accept whatever he would give me. And then I heard another voice as I was thinking about all of this, "I know what I'm doing and I know what I want you to do." I know that HF sees the bigger picture. He knows way more then I ever will. I just have to be willing to accept it and know that maybe not know, but in the future she will meet the missionaries again and will be ready. Sometimes we may not understand the why? We just have to be willing to trust whatever he puts in our way. I've learned a lot on my mission. And I feel like every week I learn 5 more new things or maybe 6 or 7. I know that weaknesses become strengths, challenges become opportunities, trials become triumphs, and adversity becomes an adventure in the service of the Lord!!
Hope you all have a great week!! I'll talk to you about conference next week:) When I actually watch it:) haha love you!
Ello Mums!!
Well thanks for all the snowbird pictures!! I'm sad I can't be there.. But it's ok because I know I'll be there next year:) But it seems like you guys are having a good time!! I can't believe how old everyone looks. It's weird?? Especially finn!! Last time we were up there he was a little baby!!! So crazy how time flies.. But how was your week?? I don't get to watch conference tell next week because that's when our ward and all of Russia gets to watch it because of translation. So I will let you know what I think next week k:) I can't wait to hear about your thoughts though!! This week was good. A lot of ups and downs for sure, but that's the mission life. I hope you got Liana's email about the ctr rings? I don't know if she told you or not.. but thanks if you did!! If not it's all good. Haha I can't believe you sent me another package. Thanks so much mom you didn't have to do that. I don't really know what to talk about this week.. Something though I do want to ask you.. So our President has asked us to start teaching families about family history work. And our District leader has asked us to ask you to find out some of our ancestors stories and share them with us:) So maybe talk to Grandma Popcorn and maybe get some information on our ancestors:) So if you could do that for me that would be great:) I also want to ask G. Diane and G. Goodie if they would do that too:) So yeah:) Um other then that it's getting pretty chilly over here. Lots of contacting, teaching, yano:) Did you by chance ever get my letter?? Also if you look on Dropbox I put some photos up! I forgot to tell you last week we went and visited Natasha, this Bob and I brought my UK and we sang together and stuff! AH I loved it so much:) It was a blast!!!!! So thank you:) Haha Natasha loved it!!!! And wants to sing some more. But anyways I can't wait to hear about you week. I love you and hope you have another awesome week:) Thanks for everything mom. I LOVE YOU!!!!
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