Hey Fam:) What a crazy week it's been as always. President has come up with a new rule to go contacting in the mornings now and do studies after.. Which that has been interesting? Helped a bab put up wallpaper.. Went on splits.. Had Zone Training in a different town which was fun! Today is Mens day? Which is where they basically worship the men;) We are having a party today though and I get the opportunity to sing:) So it will be fun!! What else.. haha My missionary leader keeps proposing to me.. um.. yeah ok now for the good stuff:)
So Today I want to talk about something that chan wrote me last week. I'm telling you chan is going to be an amazing missionary just saying. Every week he writes me the most inspiring things. But he was telling me about his wrestling and what had happened after he had lost his last match. This is something he said to me, "That day though I felt really really alone and it made me think about how you felt at the beginning of your mish when you said you felt alone. I had never really felt that until then. Just so much history and craziness with wrestling then in seconds it was over. Like the craziness of your life then in seconds your set apart and on your mish. But their is something magical about that. It gives you a lot of time to relax and focus on what's important. Everything is clear." When you think about it we all have multiple experiences where we feel like no one is there. That we are completely alone!! Haha I like how he talked about the beginning of my mish because it is completely true!! I remember that first transfer.. ahh every day feeling completely alone. But as time went on you came to realize... what? I'm not alone!!! I've never been alone and I never will be because Heavenly Father was with me the entire time. Even when I didn't realize it!! It made me think of these people here in Russia. Some or most don't even recognize their Heavenly Father. But what amazing thing to know that he knows them and he is with them, they just have to be willing to turn to him and come to know him. We had an experience with our investigator this past week.. ah it was incredible!!! She said her first prayer with us!! She now knows who her heavenly father is and can turn to him any time in any setting, knowing that she is never alone and never was alone because he was always there. We all know that the savior know's exactly what it feels like to be alone. And because of what he did for us we never have to feel like even though sometimes we may feel that we are. If you think about Christ last week and you think about all the people that decided to follow him would be right by his side during his last ministry.. What I don't understand is Judas?? How could he betray the son of god!! Someone who had prayed with him, seen miracles and ministered with him?? Like what?? Betraying him for 30 pieces of silver?? Then peter when he denied the savior 3 times??? I'm sure the savior was like what are you doing?!! But one thing that I can't even imagine.. what those last moments when God had to withdraw from him for that short moment. Christ was completely alone at that point!! But yet he had never done anything wrong to deserve that... Ah man It kills me to think about that. But that's how it had to be. In order for him to complete the atonement and to feel what most of the world would feel like. But because of the atonement and what he went through we never have to be alone.
It was funny because I was thinking about this the other day and Saturday night we are coming home from a lesson and I'm talking to this girl on the bus, not paying any attention to what's going on around me. After a little while I was like I feel like we should have been there by now? But I just continued talking to this girl haha and then I soon came to realize that, yes we had definitely passed our stop. So I turn around to see if Sister Kai was there and she wasn't.. She was gone!!! Hahaha I was like ahhh crap... In my head though I was just laughing.. So I got off at the next stop and headed back to where I needed to be. I was just so grateful to know that Sister kai is russian and now's how to do everything instead of an american greenie not having any idea what to do. Anyways I got off the bus and started walking down the street. It was completely dark and there was no one around me or even on the street. At that moment I felt super uncomfortable? Haha I was like where is my companion I don't like this feeling!! I feel completely alone!!! I wasn't scared or anything, but just uncomfortable.. Maybe because I've been with someone 24-7 for 16 months haha but I began to think about jesus christ and what chan was talking about being alone.. Then out of the distance I see Sister Kai just standing under this light post just waiting for me haha I think she was nervous she wasn't going to find me.. But she was there just waiting for me. I was never alone!! It's like us. we are never alone! Heavenly Father and JC are always there. We just have to turn to them and walk in their direction:) Anyways your never alone:) Love ya! have a great week!
Hey mum:)
Wow seems like a busy week!! But I'm glad you got dad and chan off and had a good wakky womens weakend haha. It's so true about the trials. and we need them in order to grow. I swear that is everyones questions! Like why does god give us trials. But yano that's life and we just have to deal with it and grow and learn. even though sometimes we don't understand why!! But man time is so weird after this week I only have 2 more months!! And only 3 weeks left of the transfer. I'm scared i'm going to get transferred.. Will see though. Guess what did I ever tell you that ILP has a place here in voronezh? Well they do:) and all these students came to church yesterday so it was cool to see them! i'm like hey maybe I could to ILP here and return to russia;) Haha i want to go to thialand though so will see? I heard meg is moving to st george. So kels changed her mind? Is it for colton! Things must be going good because she went with him to a race?? She's not telling me anything about it though haha but anyways things are good! I'm singing today at this party so you should be proud of me;) haha I don't need anything else. Just hoping the packages gets here before transfers so I can give sister kai her ring!! But yeah were planning to go on a diet in march so that should be good:) Haha anyways things are good:) Hope things are good with you mom!! I love you!!! Hope you have a great week!!
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